(my apologies...this is already really long, and then half-way through the spacing gives up on it. Sorry!)In Winfield, IL, there's a lovely little barn full of lovely not-so-little horses called "FTEA": Friends for Therapeutic Equine Activities. As a horse-riding facility specifically for disabled (whether mentally, physically, or both) children, all the people who work there and all the horses who serve are probably some of the nicest of either sort you'll meet. Some of them are experienced with horses, others with the disabled, and some are just looking to help because we believe in this cause. Bob told me today that he can remember a four-year-old he used to help get up on her big horse, and she's now 28. It's a great little community, even with our poor facilities and limited resources.
Today was my fourth week volunteering at FTEA. My first week was spent cleaning tack (that's the horse's bridle and reins. Yup, I sure know my lingo!), so this was my third week with the horses. Unlike most volunteers who've gone to horse school or rode as a kid or got that pony for their 5th birthday, I'm not the best with horses. My experience is limited to nose-to-butt horse rides on vacations.
And today my lack of experience was just seeping out all over the place! My first responsibility was to get Cherry out of the field and groom and tack her. Bob helped
me get Cherry out of the field, which meant he did all the work. I'm fine with that, really. By the way, the fields today were DISGUSTING! The mud was about two feet deep where you can sink in, and Cherry was just loving it. She was filthy!
Grooming her wasn't a problem...except for the whole absolutely filthy thing making it a million times longer process than usual. See her lovely coat sheen here? Nyeah...you could hardly tell she was red with all that mud. But I finished her (finally) and had to tack her. I never feel 100% confident with my saddle placements, but nobody ever fixes it so I guess I do it okay. I put on her bridle, but it didn't seem quite right so I got one of the other volunteers to check for me. Turns out it was upside-down and inside-out AND I had forgotten a piece. Sheesh!
Once Cherry was finally done up correctly, I was asked to lead Tobey to get his kicks out or whatever you say. I haven't led a horse before, so I thought that'd be pretty fun. I was just walking him around and the instructors kept wondering what was going on...there were fewer
volunteers than usual and no riders at all yet. Finally, one rider showed up, so he got his horse, Peppy, and I kept leading Tobey around the track. Carrie was leading her horse, but after a bit put him away. I didn't wanna be the weirdo with the horse and no rider for an hour, so Carrie helped me put Tobey away, too.
Usually, putting the horses in their stalls is a piece of cake, and Tobey's a pretty good guy. But for whatever reason, after we put him in his stall and removed his lead-line, he tried to bolt. AND he ran smack into Peppy and his rider! Luckily, Carrie and I were right there to grab the reins. I'm not sure if I can completely blame that on me because Carrie was there, and she's sharp...she would have mentioned if I'd done something wrong. But still! There was ONE rider today, and the ONE horse I'm leading decides to be a jerk and bolt when the rider's right there? Yeah, that doesn't look to good on anybody.
Once Tobey was calmed and put away, Carrie told me to pick which horse from the next lesson to get next to groom and tack from the field. I picked Chief because he's a very distinctive looking fellow and I knew I couldn't fulfill my horrible fear of bringing in the wrong horse. I betcha I'm gonna do that someday. Won't THAT be fun.
(Chief doesn't have a picture on the FTEA website, which is a shame, because he's beautiful. He's basically your cliched horse for the Native Americans to ride on in those silly movies...hence the name.)
He's also quite the gentleman, and when I came up to get him, he was perfectly happy to stand there. I was fiddling and messing with his working halter (quick bit of lingo again! The working halter is what you put on the horse to get it from the field to the stall for grooming. After the horse is ready to go, the working halter is replaced with the halter and bridle, which are two separate pieces.) for a very long time and it wasn't working at allll. Now, if Bob had let me put the halter on Cherry earlier, I could have learned how to do it right. Since that wasn't the case, I figured I'd go get another one in a bigger size and ask someone to quickly remind me how to put it on, so I left Chief to leave the field.
Like I said, Chief is a gentleman. He knows his way around the process, and he started following me without his lead-line on...it was actually pretty funny. I was telling him to back up so I could leave, when Carrie saw me having troubles. She sent Lily to help. Lily told me the size was indeed a little wrong...it was too big. I had been trying to put the halter on UPSIDE-DOWN againnn. I didn't tell Lily that, by the way. In my defense, there's a thingy on the working halter that looks an awful lot like a different thingy on the bridle. So I 'd been putting the thingy on the working halter behind the ears, where it goes on the bridle, when it actually should have been under his face. Way to go, self.
I was grooming Chief in his stall, which was going lovely until I got to the hooves. Guys, cleaning a horses' hooves is probably the worst part of the entire process ever. The physical strain is horrible, the horses don't exactly like it, they've been walking around in mud, muck, and who knows what else, and they never like to hold their hoof steady in your hand. Often, they don't lift it up at all. Chief did NOT want his back hooves cleaned. I was squatting there, looking like the idiot I'd been all day, when these chickies came in to tack him. Which they did. Really fast. Then they led him out! And I hadn't even done his back hooves!
But it was time for the 11:00 lesson, and it's not like dirty hooves were gonna kill him, so I went to get my next task. Since I wasn't doing anything that lesson, Carrie let me pick the next horse for the next lesson to get out. By this time, with all the blunders I'd been making, I was a little surprised they weren't just being all "go sit in a corner and stop ruining our horses". I decided to take out Marshmallow because he's a big, white horse and there was no way I was going to take the wrong horse out. Marshie is BIG, and so it was a bit harder to get his working halter on at first, but I got it on and we tromped through the mud to his stall. He was up to his knees in mud (not to mention in quite a few places all over his body) and I was trying my best not to match him.
Grooming him took awhile because he had spots of really dried-on mud, but it wasn't bad. He stood patiently, eating his salt-lick and occasionally whipping his tail. Probably the most patient horse I'd worked with that day.
I got down to his hoofs and he was absolutely agreeable. Picked up his feet right when I first "asked", and they were ridiculously easy to clean, considering all the mud he was standing in. While I was cleaning his hoofs, Dee and Carrie mentioned what a good mood Marshie was in. I hadn't met Dee before today, because she really just helps every once in awhile. She really knows her stuff, though, and has
been helping out at FTEA for awhile. She comes for "spa days", when she cleans the horses' faces with a warm, wet rag. They love it!
I was on his third hoof when Dee came by again. She said that since Marshie was in such a good mood today (I had no idea what she was talking about, besides the fact that he was patient. But most of these horses are angels anyway.) she wanted to wash his face. I let her in and she told me how Marshmallow is usually such a pain, and sometimes he doesn't even like his spa day. She was sure that since he was being so nice to me, he'd let her clean his face. He didn't.
She left to go work with some other horses, and I finished up with Marshie. Dee further explained how Marshie is usually a real jerk and likes to tease his timid workers. He snaps, stomps, and sometimes even makes to kick and he's very difficult to work with. She told me I must be "really experienced with horses" and "a very confident worker" for him to like me so much. Neither of which are exactly phrases I'd apply to myself in this or any millennium....but what a compliment!
Dee had me help her with cleaning out some stalls real fast before I went to help Carrie finish up grooming Flower, the pony. Then when the 11:00 was over, I was in charge of bringing Marshie in to get tacked. Dee told me a bit more that Marshie really did like me, and that she could tell I was very good with horses. Crazy lady. ;) After a bit, everyone had left to start lunch (which I don't stay for), and I was almost done with Marshmallow's tacking. By the way, I did that PERFECTLY for the first time.
I felt pretty good, considering how sucky of a volunteer I'd been all day. The toughest horse in the lot liked me! I can't put a bridle on Cherry or clean Chief's feet, but Marshmallow lets me do all that perfectly!
Even on a week that I didn't get to work with any students and especially on a week when I was feeling so inept, I've come out of this activity feeling elated. It's tiring work (at least I didn't fall asleep in the shower this week!) and always very dirty, and it's never quite what I expect. But I'm learning new things about people, horses, and myself every week. Today, I learned that I never suck quite as much as I think. That I apparently have confidence in my skills with this work, and I need to learn to find that confidence and use it. Marshie can see it, and he didn't think I was gonna mess up. And you know what? I didn't.
Maybe for the majority of the group, Marshie isn't the angel horse. But for me, he was the angel I needed. That big, old, grumpy horse was exactly what I needed to remember I'm just new, and I've got lots to learn- but I can do it. One week at a time.
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